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"This is my
story, this is his song, I'm only able to write, because I admit
that I was wrong"
It's has been a long hard road for a person
like me. Taking the so called easy way out, but actually making my
life very difficult. Bringing all kind of pain and misery, not
only me , but my treasured love ones.
I avoided accepting
responsibility at all cost. Why? Because I didn't know how to live.
The way I lived seemed fine until, I stop using drugs and alcohol to
escape with or as others would say to " cope"
After spending
some time running, about 30 years of ducking and dodging. Living as
a rebel without a cause, I was confused and lost. You see,
refused to listen to others.I had to do it my way or I'll take my
ball and go home. I spent a lot of time playing with that damn ball,
by myself. Yet lifes lesson aren't all ways easy to learn for a few
of us. Change comes to those of us who, well that tire out, get
curious "is there another the way to live?". Well there came a time
when nothing went right in my life, my world became gloomy. My
friends and extended family, not only turn their backs on me, they
turned on me.
Then some one brought it to my intention, that
maybe it was the choices I made.No, that couldn't be it, yeah right!
When I finally admitted that I made some bad choices and that I was
fully responsable. Life took on a hold new perspective and with that
so did my attitude.
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